Lately I have had so much on my mind that many nights I find it very hard to get to sleep. Let me tell you this is very unusual for me! I'm typically one of those people that fall asleep literally within 5 seconds of my head hitting the pillow. But recently it has been difficult. A number of things have plagued my sleep of late from the death of one of my very best friends to worrying about the Cicadas, Aphids and Spotted Laternflies in the gardens. I have laid in bed counting sheep, I'm pretty sure I have counted them all!
And then it happened, you know that moment when everything makes sense. The moment you stop going over every disastrous scenario in your head and stop and actually hear your rational self telling you to be silent. So I laid there silent, I stopped counting sheep, I stopped fretting. I just laid there and imagined the sound of a gentle breeze through the trees and myself told me to be calm and to look. And so I did, I imagined and remembered all the things I loved about my lost friend, all the things I love about my garden and I realized that nothing can take those moments of happiness and peace from me. So my friend may be gone from this world but she is always with me! My garden may have so bug visitors but we can help them be on their way with patience and a little work.
So while it is not possible to go through life without care, without hurt, without anger, worry and pain. Sometimes you have to just stop and reflect, remember, look, and understand. Sometimes you just have to realize that things aren't happening to you, they are happening around you. It is my friend who is gone, not me and that sadness, MY sadness is just the result of her not being around me. The Cicadas are here to mate not to make me miserable that fear & misery is just the result of them being around me. The aphids and laternflies are here to eat not to destroy my garden that destruction is just the result of them being around my garden.
It helps me sleep this realization. Oh sure I still worry, I'm still sad, and I still hate those bugs but being able to look at it a bit differently, look at it from the bugs point of view or stop and look around me at the cause and effect of millions of things and I can rest better. Hopefully if you have trouble sleeping this can help you rest a bit better too.
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